Falling in Fall…

Isn’t that picture I took up there lovely? Doesn’t it just make you feel so at peace with nature? The colors are beautiful aren’t they? WRONG! For me, it does everything but that. It only means that we are closer to winter and it really gives me butterflies in my stomach. It got so cold so fast this year. I have already started on my Calcium regimen. I haven’t started on my tanning yet, but will be looking forward to some sun in my coming vacation. In fact, I have increased my dose from last year. It did work wonders for me last year. I got a huge Christmas tree. I decorated the inside of our house. I even bought lots of decoration for outside the house too. I wrapped the Christmas gifts in style. I made up Christmas games and I really was feeling the opposite of blue. Thank goodness we had a burst of summer last week to up my spirits a little bit. I find it odd that it hits me almost as soon as the sun don’t shine after 5pm. My SAD symptoms don’t gradually occur. It hits me like a train. Maybe it’s also because of all the changes going on in my life at this time. Well whatever it is, I hope I cure myself just like I did last year and actually enjoy the holiday shopping!

Speaking of the holidays, I’ve already gotten ahead of myself and ordered our Christmas cards. November will be a busy time and I don’t want to fall behind on my favorite thing about the holidays! This year, I decided to have our pictures taken on location as opposed to a studio. I find that is much more fitting when you have young children. There are no appointments or people waiting behind you. It’s just more natural. I got my proofs last week and was so excited to see them. They turned out great and I’m really excited to share the best part of Christmas with everyone. The only thing I would probably enjoy about the holidays even without taking my happy medicine is receiving XMAS cards in the mail. I’m like a freaking child receiving the best gift ever when I get ‘em. So email me and request my home address so you can send me one too! Come on. Don’t be shy! *insert smiley face*

Anyway, it’s been a very good and productive last couple of weeks. I’m also enjoying decorating all over again and trying to figure out what goes best where. Color schemes. Style. All of that. I just want it all to be finished and I can truly be happy and comfortable. I’ve been busy with all of that and finishing up on my favorite thing to do- making my cherished albums of memories. I finally was able to finish our Orlando Vacation. I got the album and wished it was a little bit bigger. I currently just finished my July 2011 album as well. July was jam packed this year and I can’t wait to get it in my hands- all 60 pages of it! I know. I know. I sound obsessed, but I truly am the one who takes a crap load of pictures and preserves them for the future. I’m the one that has had a journal since I was in elementary and still reads them every now and then. I am the one who has this website (still) and prints it off getting excited of what I would think when I read it many, many years later. I even sometimes read my entries from two years ago and can’t believe some of the things I have written or how amazingly fast time really is. I even think what my kids will think when they read it when they are older! I’m the one who wrote a letter for my daughters this year for them to open on their 13th birthday. It’s a different perspective writing it to them when they are such precious, innocent babies! I think everyone will thank me for it later. I THANK myself actually. So shut it! LoL! Have a good week everyone! Stay warm!

The Calm After the Storm…

That up there is my picture of the day taken at 0430am this morning as we were “on our way to work” extra early. When we opened the garage, we saw how much snow there was. The husband actually believed that our truck was more powerful than what Mother Nature had poured down over us. We got stuck right away- as we were pulling out of the garage in what we later found to be more than knee-deep snow. After about 30 minutes of shoveling the truck out of this mess (going forward and reverse), we parked it back into the garage. I, of course, had the worst job of going forward and reverse. Dexter had the easier job of actually shoveling out there! *sigh* Dexter proceeded to shovel the snow in the driveway as we were determined to get to work, even if we were going to be late. It was still 0515am, so we could still make it in time. DUH! Look at the damn street that we had failed to even notice until we cleared the driveway. It hadn’t been plowed at all. After about an hour of contemplation, we had nothing else to do but call it a day. I called in to work late and told them I couldn’t make it. We really both did try to make it in, but it would have been impossible and dangerous. It was better to be stuck in our driveway than anywhere else. It’s been crazy. I don’t remember the last time the weather was this bad that we were literally “snowed-in” inside the house. Take care out there guys!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hello world. I am a week late, but I am hoping each and everyone of you is having a great start to the new year. It was a pretty hectic
holidays for me. Yes! My Christmas trees and some of my other decor are still up and running at our house. Every time I try to take it
down, my oldest daughter gets sad. They truly are nowold enough to feel the Christmas/Holiday spirit. This year, there will be many things I am looking forward to. Just thinking of
it makes me want to cry because I realize the girls are getting
older by the day. I always told myself that things will get easier
and easier as they grow, but the more I myself grow, the more I
realize that it will only get harder and harder. The times are
definitely different and I need to learn how to adjust to the
changing times. Anyhow, whenever I think I will have a breather, it
never happens. There is always something that needs to get done.
Laying in bed and just looking at the ceiling doing nothing at all
is not at all possible anymore. We are always on the go and ready
for the next thing that is about to happen. I am so excited to go
on a two week vacation with the family coming in the coming month. There are some plans of doing this or going here, but nothing definite. I think I like it that way. Normally, I would have
already planned out what we would be doing or where we would be
going during our time off of work. Not this time. I think I am in
the mood to just chill and do nothing and enjoy every moment of it.

So far this year, I have done well with my Project 365. If you all haven’t heard of it, it’s a project in which the participant takes a picture every day for the whole year. So far so good for me. I plan on putting it together in an album throughout the year and put it in an album.

Next week, I gotta start working on the album already- a week at a time. I’m sure the end result will be lovely and memorable. I don’t quite know where I find the time to do these things, but I do. I surprise myself too. In the end, I know all these things I do for the sake of keeping the memories alive will be WORTH it.

 

One of my pics of the day of one of my most favorite items so far this year taken by my new toy camera that comfortably fits in my bag! Hooray!


Hello World!


We have returned. It has been quite a hectic start to the summer. We were gone for a month to the Philippines. It was a very mixed emotion type of thing. It was fun but so hard at the same time. There were many days when I just wanted to cut the vacation short and head back, but we both managed to make it through. Now I am finally recovered and everything is back to normal. Janelle has grown so much in the recent months. She is talking so much more and is more toddler-like. Both the girls now sleep with us and it’s kind of like a blessing in disguise. We all sleep late at the same time, but they also wake up later. No more early morning wake up calls from the little one. Unpacking and organizing everything will be a bitch though. I haven’t even started doing that yet.

My computer  (the older one) fried its own hard drive while we were away. I admit, I have not been giving it much attention since I got my iMac. It won’t turn back on and it says files cannot be read. Dex called the company and they made him open everything up. The diagnosis: hard drive overload which lead to a massive stroke and loss of information. We never backed anything up, so I was devastated to lose 90% of Jasmyne’s baby pictures which I did not get to download into my Flickr account. Now I am making all their albums from Flickr, because there is no way to transfer from Flickr back to my computer. So in essence, I still have all of Janelle’s pictures, but from my Flickr account. Jasmyne’s first year is mostly lost because it was so chaotic during her first year that I didn’t get to move her files. We were moved twice and was living in our apartment at the time. That’s what I get for procrastinating. Now I’m rushing and spending lots of money making them their baby books before something worse happens and I lose it all for good! Oh well. Life goes on right?

Well next mini holiday is Father’s day. My husband will definitely deserve this day and so much more. I know you think your husband or father was the best, but I tell you now, MINE IS! . The Fourth of July is coming. I’m excited because it has become one of my favorites- especially our yearly Taste of Chicago excursions. Then there’s my brother’s wedding and then our FIVE YEAR anniversary. Planning where and what we’re doing this year is in the works. It’s a special number and definitely deserves some sort of celebration, so we’ll see.


Where Did the Month Go?


I can’t believe that’s it is already February. I felt like I was wishing you guys a happy new year just yesterday. Anyhow, I think this will be a busy month for me. I got myself another job as a registry nurse closer to my home. For all of you who are not in the health field, I basically schedule myself to work whenever I want. It’s kind of necessary since I only work three days a week and I spend money like it grows on trees. Honestly, my hubby and I need o be more financially responsible, but we are not. OUR motto is that you only live once. You never know when the end will come, so you gotta just enjoy life and your money. Saving is not even in our vocab. Irresponsible, I know! So starting this Friday marks the first day of my 16 day in a row work flow. What the? I have never ever in my life worked that many days in a row. At least it will all be paid, right? My interview and acceptance of my new job was all so random and not planned for. My assistant manager was kind enough to let me have the two weeks off. Since I felt guilty, I offered to work the weekends when he took me off the schedule for those two weeks. I can already see my crankiness level at its highest on Day 16. At least my orientation times are only 8-430PM, so I am not expecting it to be too bad! I guess I’m just really trying to look at the bright side.

Life otherwise has been pretty good. The girls are growing up right before my very eyes. Sometimes I tear up just when I think of it. Janelle is still my little baby, but she is so big and doing more and more things independently. Jasmyne has pretty much been independent since she started walking. LoL! She honestly was feeding herself before she turned one. Her language skills were always above and beyond those her same age. So I am honestly enjoying “babying” Janelle. I feel like I didn’t get to do that with Jasmyne. We almost have a routine of playing Wii all times of the day in our bedroom. Yes! We have to take turns with each other and Jasmyne as well. The only thing I really play is the “shooting” game on Wii Play. For some reason, I am addicted to trying to beat the highest score. It’s so crazy! I wish I didn’t start it again. I’m not even trying to look at our guitar for Hero! Well I’m gonna try to enjoy my next two days off- kinda like the calm before the storm. The song above calms me. I spent moost of the day downloading songs into my beloved iMAC. This song definitely brings it way back.

I think this month, I will be busy trying to pack a box or two to send to the Philippines for our trip. I need to have so many things for the girls while I am there. I HATE to pack for the worst because it doesn’t seem like a vacation, but that is what I am going to have to do. On my short list: Diapers Galore, Clorox Wipes, all types of medicine, IV fluids, all sorts of ointments, Cereals, Geber Sausage Links, all sorts of snacks and food, Mosquito Drugs and oh so much more. My list is so bad that I have to pre-send the boxes over to prevent us having to bring it all on top of everything else. I am more anxious than excited about this trip. If it were totally up to me, I would not go, but we must. Oh well. I gotta stop procrastinating and get to it this time around.

I also hate when things go wrong at the wrong times. It’s like when you’re late for work and you catch all the red lights and all the slow traffic is right ahead of you. I started printing some much needed stuff and my printer decides to act up! It says that there is no more ink when I just got it filled last month. I knew that guy did not know what he was doing! The hubby better fix that issue by tonight! Oh my poor hubby always getting the better half of me! Gotta love him! Goodnight everyone!

Love my TOYS!

So I finally got my Keurig Coffee Maker and I must say it is one of the best things ever created- for ME! I only like to drink flavored coffee and for the most part- ICED!. Nobody else in the house drinks flavored coffee. Nobody else likes to drink iced coffee either. My parents drink Decaf, so making coffee in the morning was pretty chaotic. Okay. Okay. It wasn’t that chaotic. It was just not that satisfying for me. Therefore, I rarely had a cup of coffee at home. I usually waited until we stepped out of the house and bought it somewhere. So enter my new Keurig obsession and we have solved everything. Everyone is happy with their coffee needs everyday and WE HAVE NOT bought a cup of coffee from anywhere since our purchase. It has pretty much paid for itself overnight. I ordered a whole bunch of different flavors for myself. Extra Bold for the hubby. Decaf for my parents. Tea for everyone. The best part is that everything is single serving. No coffee in the pot wasted. Everyone makes a cup of their liking. I have a different flavor every single day. I even have it twice a day sometimes. I can also have my lemon tea before I go to bed. It has also saved Dex and I money and time. We had to stop by McD’s or Dunkin D’s every morning to get our coffees before going to work. Now, we brew and go to work. Oh the simple pleasures in life that I do so love.

Another thing I have grown to love is my new MAC, and I am not talking about make-up. Although my eyes feel beaten up by the big 27 inch beauty that I am staring at, it is one of the best things ever created. I love it! I have a lot of pictures, and I must say that I may just have to say goodbye to my FLiCKR account. My new Mac functions just like it, if not better. I still have a lot of learning to do, but so far so good. I was a bit hesitant to get one before, but after countless visits to the Apple store, I was convinced that I had to get that “cool looking” thing not knowing anything about it. I have Jasmyne to thank for it for always wanting to go to that darn Apple store at Woodfield. Now,  I find myself excited to go home to get to know my Macky better each day. I am excited to go home to have a cup of lemon tea. HAHAHA. Okay. I think this means I need to stop blogging about my loser life. Have a good night everyone! I leave you a picture of my new baby and some of the goodies.


Revamping

I was always the type to be creative and I love arts and crafts. Even back in grade school, I remember looking forward to doing my science fair project just so I could “decorate” my poster board. Who knew that science and decorating went together, huh? I know, I know. What a nerdy thought! It is also said that people who are artistic and creative always crave change- for obvious reasons. That proves to be true with me. So in recent months, I have been craving for a much needed change around the house. I actually wanted a couple of rooms repainted to more vibrant colors, however, that was DENIED by the husband. I tried many times to convince him of this need for change, but he kept declining. So I had to settle for less drastic and subtle changes, which have been in effect over the recent weeks. I guess I can be satisfied for now. I put up some new paintings and pictures on the wall. I can say I am satisfied, even for just a little while. With all the picture frames needing pictures and lots of pictures needing to be printed, I realized just how much my kids have grown. Jasmyne turned three in July, and I have yet to create an album for her. I take loads and loads of pictures and download them to my computer- and then the red light is on. That’s where it stops. My goal for next year is to organize my organized mess and make an updated album of both of my beautiful kids. As much as I’d like to get my creative juices flowing to create beautiful albums, I don’t think it’ll happen. It is just too time consuming and I will actually settle for much less. I’d just be happy to get it done.

I am so glad I have been snappy happy all these years, because I sure have lots of beautiful pictures that will help me to keep the moments alive. If there was ever one great investment I ever made, it would have to be my camera and my lens that go with it. Oh and my 2000 Honda Civic that still drives me to and from work after all these years! Man that car has been probably the only thing that has stuck to me (by choice) for ten years now! Wow. I think it’s time for a change soon!

In other news, did I ever say how much I hate taxes. Well if I haven’t already- I HATE EFFIN TAXES! Okay. There. I feel better now. Good Day!

What the Doctor Ordered!


- True by Black Eyed Peas. I love this new feature. Happy listening!

I have long known that I get very sad around the winter time and holidays. It’s been that way for many years and i have learned to accept it. It has been really bad this year (even though winter isn’t even in season yet) because it’s gotten so cold so fast. I really want to be truly happy for the holidays because I am now blessed with not one, but two little angels. Last year, I didn’t have our traditional XMAS Eve+Birthday Party that we’d have for years. All my family was kinda expecting it and people were calling all day if there was something going one. I want this year to be different.  It’s really hard to go outdoors because I hate the cold weather. It is now exacerbated by the fact that not only do I have to bundle myself up, but TWO other kids. I always hate the potential of making them sick… and it is a lot of work. This adds up to a worst type of depression of being indoors all the time during the cold months. So I did some research hoping to find a medicinal cure in the wonderful world of Google, but could not find what I was looking for.

So I asked one of our psychiatric doctors for some help. What prescription medicine do I take to cure my winter blues? He gave me the same sad response I had found from my computer research and I was a bit saddened. Winter blues is a direct effect of less sunlight due to shorter days. People are less likely to go out and therefore, they feel “blue” from a lack of Vitamin D from the sunlight. Many people’s brains don’t respond to this change in a negative way, but in select few people, the response is depression. I AM ONE OF THOSE SELECT FEW. Go figure! His response was to GO OUTDOORS. I told him my scenario and told him about the two kids and there are not very many outdoor activities during the cold months and blah blah blah. Here I am thinking he would pop me a prescription paper. He then said buy some Vitamin D supplements and go tanning- like in those tanning beds! WTF!?! Are you kidding me? Of course, he wasn’t. So I bought me my supplements and I am pleased to announce that I will be sporting this tan+glow for the winter, so don’t be surprised. I’m though with these bouts of crying and feeling these winter blues- especially when it’s not even winter yet!

Speaking of which, it has FINALLY been beautiful out these past couple of days. Hope it lasts through the weekend. Jasmyne and Janelle will be going to their first Halloween Party with pumpkin decorating this Saturday. I have to work, which is sad. I’ll have to trust that daddy can make them look extra “halloweenie” special.

Thanks to the beautiful weather, I got me some much needed direct sunlight today and ordered Janelle’s birthday cake for her coming party too! Yay! I love cakes. I love fondant icing- but I HATE the way it tastes. Oh well. Sometimes some things suffer for beauty- even when it comes to food. LoL!

Addicted to…

I always seem to say this often, but that’s how it works I guess. I will finish the sentence: Before I had kids… I was big on reading books.

There- I said it! I’m slowly getting back into the love of reading. I used to read before bed time or while I would lounge around in the couch watching TV. As some of you may well know, after having kids (especially two), most of that time is gone. You can’t always lay on the couch to watch TV AND read a book. Now I never said never, but it is very rare because you would rather do something else with that time- like SLEEP or chores. Since I’ve started reading that Sleep book I’ve been talking about, I have had more sleep and caught up on it most of the time. More recently, since my parents left for the PI, we have decided to use Method #2 of that book. It’s a method used by many parents, but one that Dex and I were hesitant to try. It’s the “Let your baby cry it out until she can’t cry anymore so she can go to sleep all by herself” method. Okay. Okay. Okay. I may have made it sound worse than it actually is. If you actually read the book and all the logic behind it- it’s not too bad. They are actually not crying themselves to sleep. I was just kidding. They are just learning to understand that mommy/daddy will not come back no matter how much they cry. Through that, they just learn to put themselves to sleep.  Method One worked for us, but it was just too time consuming. Sometimes it would take an hour and a half for us to put Janelle to sleep. Granted she would sleep through the night, but still, we spent so much time putting her to nap and sleep at nite. So this “meaner” method worked. We lay her on her crib and VOILA, she goes to sleep without a fight. A week ago, she cried for up to 40 minutes. Slowly, but surely, that time has decreased. Now she may cry a max of five minutes, but she basically gets the point now. Her crib means sleep time! Now if only we could use that trick for Jasmyne. Darn my luck.

Anyway, this new found freedom during nap and bedtime has given me more time to myself. The nite time is usually also my one on one time with Jasmyne, so this afternoon break is great. I’ve been addicted to going to the library since discovering its goodness over the summer. I’ve checked out more books than I can handle. I’ve bought books from Barnes that I think I wouldn’t mind reading again and again. Oh reading- how much I missed you. Okay. I’ll stop myself from being too nerdy for the public press now.

Here’s a list of my current reads:

90 Minutes in Heaven

The Time Travelers Wife

Act Like a Lady. Think Like a Man- by Steve Harvey

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

October Already

I still can’t believe that October is already here. I NEVER know where time is going, but everyday is bringing me faster into tomorrow. October means fall and coldness, which I hate. I do love the changing colors of the leaves, but that is about it.  October is the birthday month of the hubby. October is also Janelle’s birthday month- which means, she is turning ONE this year. Yes ladies and gents. The party planning has been in the works and almost done. I’ve done the invites and booked the place. We knew we didn’t want it at our place this year. I wanted it at a children’s place and Dexter wanted it at a restaurant. The hubby won and the date is set.

I was watching some old videos of Jasmyne the other day. It dawned on me that we rarely take videos of the girls. I have NONE of Janelle and very few moments of Jasmyne. Those few moments we did capture of her brought back some tears. Those are memories frozen in time through that video. There were so many of those memories that we did not capture- and how I wish that we did. So starting now, I have vowed that as important as pictures are, so are videos. Those are the times that I cannot get back. Janelle is not walking yet, however, if you left her for an itty bitty minute, you will see that she made her way to the second floor of the house or that she is sitting on top of the couch. She is not talking, but she is babbling a whole lot. She can also “sing” a song copying your tone of voice. I gotta get all these cute little things she does on video.Jasmyne already started preschool and she loves every moment of it. I secretly enjoy taking her to school and picking her up. The whole process is so emotional for me, even after so many weeks. She is going to miss her first field trip next week due to our scheduled mini-cation, but it’s okay. There will be plenty more to come.

Janelle’s  first birthday is a milestone for not only her, but for us as parents. It has been a tiring year, not so much because of Janelle, but because of the fact that she is the second child. I thought having one was tough- but obviously the second one made life even tougher. I feel like Dex and I battled a war and we are so very close to coming out of it alive! Many people think that just because my parents are around we got it good. I ADMIT, we have it very good in a way that we have a second set of hands most of the time. We can go to work without worrying about the babysitter. My mom is great and I appreciate it all, but people don’t know that when we are not at work, we are home with the kids. We have rarely left them with my parents to go out and party or go to the movies or go on a date. We know that is our responsibility and we’ve owned up to it. If we are not at work, we are with the kiddies. Dex and I were talking about growing old together a couple of days ago. How 5 years from now, I will be 35 (I let the cat out) and that is still pretty young. The girls will be 8 and 6. WOW! It’s amazing that we will still be young and the girls are already that old. We not only get to enjoy our youth together, but also enjoy our kids as they get older. Then I feel at ease that we made the right choice of having them when we did. We had a chance to enjoy each other before having kids and we’ll still enjoy each other after having them too. There is always a rainbow at the end of a rain- and I believe that all the more now.

Currently reading: 90 Minutes in Heaven

Looking forward to: Wisconsin Dells and Mall of America Trip