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NINE & TEN DAYS

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I am very proud to say that I am done with all my Christmas shopping except for our family grab bag. I think that is pretty good considering I have a BIG shopping list, most which consists of little kids. I am also very proud to say that my tree is almost packed- meaning I have wrapped most of the gifts and placed them there ready to be opened. I am also proud to say that I sent my holiday cards earlier than I normally do in previous years. I don’t know what it is this year, but I am wired about Christmas. I decorated the house and even bought candy canes to line my driveway. We also went to Winter Wonderland last week and I highly recommend it for all of you who have children. It was like a Christmas Carnival and so very festive. My kids had a blast- and I secretly did too. The only thing that sucks and kills my mood is this cold weather, but I have surprisingly held up and stayed pretty upbeat this season.

So there is TEN more days until Christmas and NINE more days until I welcome another decade of life and say goodbye to my twenties. I will write about it later, but my TWENTIES have been a whirlwind of change after change after change. I’m very excited to see what the next 10 years holds for me. I am predicting that it will be much more calm than the last ten years. I am obviously expecting more changes through my children than that of myself.

Anyway, I completely forgot that I have to get my husband a Christmas gift too. I’ve been so blah during the holidays over the years that my poor husband always gets the dead ends of my crappy holiday mood. I really want to make up for it this year since I’m so happy this time around. One of my friends also told me that I have to learn to accept gifts given to me. Ever since I can remember, even as a child, I would always feel guilty for getting NICE gifts. I would always say “Oh you don’t have to” or “Please take it back. It’s too much” or “Are you sure”. I always feel guilty inviting people to go places in fear that they would feel like they “had” to come, when in fact, I NEVER mind when they have other plans. I’m just weird that way. Anyway, Dex may secretly like this personality of mine, but I  have come to find that he HATES when I return his gifts.  I do this not only during the holidays, but for many occasions throughout the year. I guess I don’t feel like I need a lot of those things and I didn’t think he would be so hurt by it. I honestly always tell him NOT to get me anything- and I honestly would not be mad. It is not one of those tricky things that a woman says. LoL. This year, I WILL accept whatever is given to me by anyone. I won’t reject it or I won’t say “Are you sure about that” or “You don’t have to get my kids anything”  like I normally would. I guess it is offensive to people, even though I don’t think of it in that way. With that, THANK YOU Natalie for my kids’ present! I’m sure they will love it. *wink*

Now I’m just thinking what I can get someone who I think has everything? It’s just so damn hard! Well, I have ten days and counting!

What the Doctor Ordered!

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- True by Black Eyed Peas. I love this new feature. Happy listening!

I have long known that I get very sad around the winter time and holidays. It’s been that way for many years and i have learned to accept it. It has been really bad this year (even though winter isn’t even in season yet) because it’s gotten so cold so fast. I really want to be truly happy for the holidays because I am now blessed with not one, but two little angels. Last year, I didn’t have our traditional XMAS Eve+Birthday Party that we’d have for years. All my family was kinda expecting it and people were calling all day if there was something going one. I want this year to be different.  It’s really hard to go outdoors because I hate the cold weather. It is now exacerbated by the fact that not only do I have to bundle myself up, but TWO other kids. I always hate the potential of making them sick… and it is a lot of work. This adds up to a worst type of depression of being indoors all the time during the cold months. So I did some research hoping to find a medicinal cure in the wonderful world of Google, but could not find what I was looking for.

So I asked one of our psychiatric doctors for some help. What prescription medicine do I take to cure my winter blues? He gave me the same sad response I had found from my computer research and I was a bit saddened. Winter blues is a direct effect of less sunlight due to shorter days. People are less likely to go out and therefore, they feel “blue” from a lack of Vitamin D from the sunlight. Many people’s brains don’t respond to this change in a negative way, but in select few people, the response is depression. I AM ONE OF THOSE SELECT FEW. Go figure! His response was to GO OUTDOORS. I told him my scenario and told him about the two kids and there are not very many outdoor activities during the cold months and blah blah blah. Here I am thinking he would pop me a prescription paper. He then said buy some Vitamin D supplements and go tanning- like in those tanning beds! WTF!?! Are you kidding me? Of course, he wasn’t. So I bought me my supplements and I am pleased to announce that I will be sporting this tan+glow for the winter, so don’t be surprised. I’m though with these bouts of crying and feeling these winter blues- especially when it’s not even winter yet!

Speaking of which, it has FINALLY been beautiful out these past couple of days. Hope it lasts through the weekend. Jasmyne and Janelle will be going to their first Halloween Party with pumpkin decorating this Saturday. I have to work, which is sad. I’ll have to trust that daddy can make them look extra “halloweenie” special.

Thanks to the beautiful weather, I got me some much needed direct sunlight today and ordered Janelle’s birthday cake for her coming party too! Yay! I love cakes. I love fondant icing- but I HATE the way it tastes. Oh well. Sometimes some things suffer for beauty- even when it comes to food. LoL!

Addicted to…

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I always seem to say this often, but that’s how it works I guess. I will finish the sentence: Before I had kids… I was big on reading books.

There- I said it! I’m slowly getting back into the love of reading. I used to read before bed time or while I would lounge around in the couch watching TV. As some of you may well know, after having kids (especially two), most of that time is gone. You can’t always lay on the couch to watch TV AND read a book. Now I never said never, but it is very rare because you would rather do something else with that time- like SLEEP or chores. Since I’ve started reading that Sleep book I’ve been talking about, I have had more sleep and caught up on it most of the time. More recently, since my parents left for the PI, we have decided to use Method #2 of that book. It’s a method used by many parents, but one that Dex and I were hesitant to try. It’s the “Let your baby cry it out until she can’t cry anymore so she can go to sleep all by herself” method. Okay. Okay. Okay. I may have made it sound worse than it actually is. If you actually read the book and all the logic behind it- it’s not too bad. They are actually not crying themselves to sleep. I was just kidding. They are just learning to understand that mommy/daddy will not come back no matter how much they cry. Through that, they just learn to put themselves to sleep.  Method One worked for us, but it was just too time consuming. Sometimes it would take an hour and a half for us to put Janelle to sleep. Granted she would sleep through the night, but still, we spent so much time putting her to nap and sleep at nite. So this “meaner” method worked. We lay her on her crib and VOILA, she goes to sleep without a fight. A week ago, she cried for up to 40 minutes. Slowly, but surely, that time has decreased. Now she may cry a max of five minutes, but she basically gets the point now. Her crib means sleep time! Now if only we could use that trick for Jasmyne. Darn my luck.

Anyway, this new found freedom during nap and bedtime has given me more time to myself. The nite time is usually also my one on one time with Jasmyne, so this afternoon break is great. I’ve been addicted to going to the library since discovering its goodness over the summer. I’ve checked out more books than I can handle. I’ve bought books from Barnes that I think I wouldn’t mind reading again and again. Oh reading- how much I missed you. Okay. I’ll stop myself from being too nerdy for the public press now.

Here’s a list of my current reads:

90 Minutes in Heaven

The Time Travelers Wife

Act Like a Lady. Think Like a Man- by Steve Harvey

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

I’m Gonna Miss It

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My dad comes back today from the Philippines. We’re actually all ready to pick him up, minus the hubby who is at work. Thank goodness it looks like a beautiful day outside. Finally! That finally deserved its own sentence with an exclamation point. Anyway, I’m gonna miss it. My mom is never one to sleep alone in the dark- kinda like me oddly enough. So while my dad was away, Jasmyne was sleeping with her at night. There were some days when Jasmyne refused to sleep with her and wanted to sleep with us. I felt bad and didn’t want to turn her away, so my mom would be sleepless in her bedroom on those few occasions- with the lights on may I add. I enjoyed the cuddle time at night between the hubby and I. We got to talk and well, you know the other stuff too! It’s weird when Jasmyne is there because she can sense when Dex and I are sleeping next to each other and she has been pushed to one side of the bed. Even if we try to trick her and put a pillow to simulate one of us, she will know. She will wake up and then have a hard time falling back asleep. So I missed her with us at night, but I’m gonna miss the quality time with the hubby at night even more. I know I can “train” Jasmyne to sleep on her own without a problem, but due to some constraints, we’ll just have to wait it out a little bit longer. Her bed is in our bedroom, but having us too close to home makes it difficult for her to transition. Although, she has slept in her bed about 5 times already. I can’t wait until the day!

Anyway, I started reading this book I’ve been meaning to read since a long time ago. It is part of the Something Borrowed and Something New series, but not a continuation of the two stories. If you haven’t read the above books yet, then I highly recommend it. This new book is called Baby Proof and it is something that totally relates to me in some ways as you may have guessed from the title. It is about a woman who knew from the start that she NEVER wanted to have babies. She thinks that society has totally twisted everyone’s mind about the steps to take in life to make you complete. OKAY SO OBVIOUSLY THAT PART does not pertain to me. I was, however, part of her “society” because I’ve known since I was young that I wanted to get married and have children. I guess she is right. i don’t know where I have would have gotten that idea so young in my life. I wanted my first child at 30, but it came earlier than expected in my life calendar. This brings me to another topic that she covered in her book.

Ironically enough, just a couple of weeks ago, I was having this same exact conversation with a couple of  co-workers. One of them had five children and her youngest is about to start college. Another one has elementary age kids. One of them didn’t have kids at all and was not even married yet, so we were kind of giving her ideas about this process we call life. I love having kids and I DON’T regret ever having them at all. I just wanted to clarify that, but I think if given the choice again, I would wait until later in life. We were all discussing how once you have kids, you can’t really say: Oh once their 18, I’m gonna be free. In actuality, you will be worrying and feeding your kids until your day has come at the end of your life. There really is no magic number. So my response was how right they were. I wanted to have kids younger so that when they get older and I don’t have to worry about them anymore and I am still young. But look at my parents. We’re all pretty old, but they still worry. They still do their life’s schedule based on mine (ours). I look at my aunt’s and uncles and think the same thing. Even my grandma was worried about her children until her last breath. So  my conclusion, which is like the conclusion of the woman in the book is this: why have them earlier if you will have all your life to worry about them anyway? You may as well have them later, except she absolutely preferred not to have them at all. She thinks that if you want to have kids early to get it over with, then that means they are a bother to being with. If you want to have kids later on in life to prolong the process, then doesn’t that mean you are making yourself suffer? That was according to her eyes. Anyway, I am not finished with the book yet. I am assuming she will end up having a child accidentally. I am assuming she will reap the benefits of it- the happiness it gives you and totally take back every bit of negativity she said about the “process” in the first place.

I can write a book about these topics without a problem. I guess the point is, whether you are young or old, you have to be truly ready to have children. Not just one person, but as a team. It is definitely a leap. I think it is the MAIN cause of today’s high divorce rate among people. They follow what society has told them should happen after marriage without really thinking deeply into it. It really takes two special people and an unbreakable bond and team work. Thank goodness I know I have found that other person who is special for me. Special enough for me to know that he is definitely the right person to have had fathered my children and perfect enough as a husband for me. It’s pretty rare nowadays to find that. Whew!

Have a happy weekend everyone!

Jon and Kate

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It’s likely just coincidental, but there is always a reality TV show that I find myself relating to at important milestones of my life. During my marriage, I loved watching The Newlyweds: Nick and Jess. Their relationship totally reminded me of my relationship with Dexter. It was so scary because we related to them almost 96% of the time. Then they went down the drain, which I am still crying over to this day. I still believe that they still love each other, but that’s just me.

So I DO NOT watch television too often. I don’t have a show I have to watch or follow. Thank goodness. My free time is spent more on the internet. I shop on there. I update my life on there. I stay updated on other people’s life on there too. All I have to say is thank goodness for nap time. Anyway, Jon and Kate Plus Eight has become one of my favorite shows. I can’t say that Dex and I relate to them as much as we did with Nick and Jess, but we still relate to them nevertheless. I find great joy when Dex and I can look at each other and realize that we are not the only ones going through what we are going through. I love when Kate says something and I look at Dex and give him a look that says: See I am not the only biatch in this world. They are such an inspiration as parents to me. It’s so hard to be a parent of two kids, so I can only imagine. Heck- I would only want to imagine. They have done such a good job with everything up to this point. Besides, those kids (all eight of them) are the second cutest kids next to mine. I still don’t know how they have done it all these years. I also can’t believe how fast those kids have grown- and how fast mine are growing. Oh life!

That is why I am Hoping and Praying that the rumors aren’t true. Jon is soooooo good with his kids (and his wife) that I couldn’t imagine him straying the wrong way. It just can’t be. That’s why to all the people who get married, my first advice is for them to enjoy each other. Many people tell me that they have been living together for years and are ready to have children. To me, though, living together has nothing to do with it. Many couples live together, but they haven’t really spent time together. I know that doesn’t make any sense, but people live together and lead busy lives outside of it. At least it seems busy at the moment. Once you have kids, you cannot go back to having alone time with only each other. After marriage is a good time to concentrate on one another- to travel and enjoy life without the hassles of trying to finish school or paying the bills. I tell people that they should TRULY get to know and enjoy each others company. Once you have kids, it will be some time before you can tell yourself you don’t have to worry about them. Actually, after you have kids, many people relate their freedom to spend time with one another to their retirement! Can you imagine that? Sheesh. Thank goodness Dex and I are not thinking that far in advance.

I don’t regret what happened to Dex and I at all. I feel that we lived together and were lucky enough not to have financial problems. We travelled a lot, but I must admit, not enough to say I was satisfied. When I think of it now, I do wish that we travelled more. We have a strong bond that we can fall on though, and that is the most important thing. I pray every night for our family, because nothing is ever certain. It takes a lot of hard work. It’s not hard work only sometimes… it’s putting in hard work every second of the day. Cheesy I know, but believe me, it’s true!

Another Random Blob

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I was home with the kids alone today, and they both did so well. I am so tired though. Janelle woke up at 600am and Jasmyne woke up at 630, which is unusual for her regular waking time of about 1000am. When they finally napped around noon, I got some tasks done. This included cleaning up our nastified room. I’ve been wanting to post it on here, but have not had the chance to. Jasmyne has been using the potty. Not religiously, but sure enough she has been going to pee in there at least twice a day. She was originally using the potty toilet seat, but I soon figured it wasn’t doing the trick. She’d sit on the toilet and flush and wipe, but not pee. So we actually bought her those “personal potties” that stay on the floor and that of course did it. I don’t know why, but it did. She has also not been using her pacifier now for the last four days. She goes to sleep without it. She asks for it, but soon forgets that we didn’t give it to her. Yes! Mission slowly being accomplished. Now I just have to hide it from the Grandma to make sure she’s not secretly getting it when we’re not around. This weekend, Dex and I are off. We are starting Janelle on her solids already. Can you believe that? Well if you can- I CAN’T! It’s been a breeze. So Saturday is the day- and I’m sure my little chunky monkey baby will love it! I can’t wait! The other day, I was feeling somewhat guilty. Janelle has barely been put to sleep in our arms since she was a newborn. Actually, she cannot sleep being rocked in our arms. She hates it. We “trained” her so well to sleep in her bed- alone! It’s kinda sad to think about it now. I get to hold her and play with her, but we can’t cuddle her to sleep. We leave her alone in her room and come in when she cries on the baby monitor, which is usually once a night. It’s sooooo much easier for us, but I just feel so guilty. We did the exact opposite for Jasmyne, and although it was extremely hard, we were really that much closer to her. We can’t even kick her out of our bed and bedroom. I realize that I can’t turn back the clock, but in the future, I’m sure I’ll appreciate it. I just can’t help but feel this way for now. People say I am too hard on myself and that many parents pick this route- for the obvious reason of it being much easier on the parents. I hope she doesn’t throw a fit on the airplane when we can’t lay her in her swing or crib to sleep. Yikes! So when we’re out, it’s kinda bad. She knows that night time means longer sleep and it also means her crib. She knows when she’s in her crib and therefore she knows its nighttime. So when we’re out and about and it’s past her bedtime, she has a fit- and I’m talking about tantrum attacks. Girlfriend wants her sleep and her milk when she wants it. There are no if’s', and’s or but’s about it. I hope the weatherman has it right. It’s supposed to be beautiful weather over the weekend. I can’t wait for this winter crap to be over with. I’m so over it. I hate it. Because of this fugly weather, the girls are still sick. I hate that I cannot give them any medicine. Janelle has terrible nights, which is the reason why I am so tired today. She could not sleep for the life of me last night. She couldn’t breathe through her poor nose- which is already too small to begin with. I need shoes and more clothes for our little vacation. Speaking of which, we had our taxes done last week. IT’S GREAT! Never quite had that much before, but I’ll take it. I think I deserve me new bling-bling and a purse. The hubby okay’s it, so we’ll see. I’ve been into accessories as of late. Jasmyne has got a new whole wardrobe for the summer. So much cute stuff. I     just can’t seem to talk the hubby into buying her different shoes. Hello! It’s part of the steelo. Took pictures (or planned to take pictures) of the girls. Jasmyne was being bratty and absolutely refused. She was all made up with hair and matching dresses, but she wouldn’t budge. We’ll have to come back and do it again. Janelle’s came out cute, but not too much variety cause she was also getting crabby. Our photographer SUCKED! It was so stressful. Now I know why I’ve only taken them to get professional pictures but once- and that was when Jasmyne was 6 months old. A lot of poeple can’t believe that, but I’ve seriously only taken Jasmyne to get her pics once. That in and of itself was a horrible experience and we spent LOTS of money and I vowed never again. So with this experience of crying baby and a fighting toddler and trying to get the right pose in- NEVER AGAIN. Okay maybe not never, but you know what I mean. Anyway, I have run out of things to babble about- even though there are a million things rushing around in this little head of mine. Back to work tomorrow. I need to knock out.  You all have a wonderful Thursday. Enjoy the weather- cuz according to the weather man, it’s gonna be good!

The Baptism

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Janelle was finally baptized this past Sunday and it was a really touching ceremony. I had been so anxious about her getting “dipped” full body into the Holy Water Fountain that I didn’t even imagine how beautiful it could be. It was exactly that- BEAUTIFUL! The ceremony at the church and the priest that delivered the mass was perfect. I was almost in tears as she was getting baptized into the holy water, but I had to hold it back. It was as if she emerged from the water and her cry and expression on her face was like when I first met her on her birthday. It was awesome. I almost feel like I should go to church on Sundays now. Honestly, I realized that I should be exposing my children to it. I grew up going to church every Sunday, and although I am not the most religious person in the world, it was definitely something that became a part of me. Jasmyne was at the church for her fourth time, if even that.  I almost felt selfish that she is not exposed to it. She didn’t even know she was at church or that she had to be quiet. She actually thought it was a play ground and she was “playing with the kids”. Thankfully, she wasn’t obnoxiously loud, but still I felt guilty. Being a parent makes you realize how selfish you can sometimes be. I can’t even spare an hour one day of the week to at least expose them into religion/church! I think that is something I want to change this year!

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The reception afterward was somewhat a disappointment. Everyone was there and it was a good party, but the restaurant was a total rip off. RAM Restaurant and Brewery SUCKS!!! Small servings of everything and they tried to reduce and cheat us off of the burgers we had ordered. Good thing the hubby counted that there were 9 burgers missing from our second order of burgers! We had previously ordered a set amount of food and quickly realized we had to order almost double of what we originally ordered. People kept coming and the food kept going. Their skewers were ridiculous. It literally could have flown away if it was windy inside the restaurant. It was unbelievable. The bill was ridiculous for what was served. We had open bar, but barely anyone even drank, so the foot of the bill wasn’t even alcohol as we had expected. Everyone came who we invited. It only held 60 people, so we kept it strictly to immediate family and friends, even though we wanted to invite so many people that we worked with. Oh well. I couldn’t find a bigger place in a short amount of time. Most places were booked for baby showers and wedding showers for all the April and May festivities.

All in all, it was a good but tiring day. We started early before the mass to pick up the balloons and cake. Then it was off to the restaurant to decorate for a little bit. The kids had it even worst- but they did so good for not being able to nap or rest. I was especially proud of my little star of the day- Janelle. She was just so happy and smiling at everyone and nap free for the whole day. Check out the pictures on my Flickr Site.

Oh and speaking of holiness, I am giving up rice for Lent. This is the first time I am ever giving up rice. I hope to stand by it. I wanted to give up something I couldn’t do without- so there it is.

PS: I did tell God that I will have rice only on one day during Lent. That will be during my trip to Vegas. I hope he listened to me and understands. Otherwise, like I always say, I’m going to hell dude!

Oh What A Day!!!

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Today has been pretty hectic, but I must say that I am a bit proud of myself for having enough energy to do as much as I have! Whew! That was a long sentence too, huh? I have been so tired lately and I mean really tired. My eyes hurt on a daily basis from forcing them open all day long. It has been busy at work. Janelle is still waking up at night, which is totally normal for her age. What is not normal is how she wants to play at 3AM on most nights when it’s my turn to watch her! I don’t know the deal on that, but I am one tired ladee. It’s so hard because Dex and I are back to having an almost identical schedule. So when it’s my turn to sleep with the baby and I have work the next day- I am not a happy camper! Thank goodness Dexter takes the bulk of the night shift from me. He’s the best husband ever! That is why I am ever so excited to go to Las Vegas this coming March with my whole family and my mom. It always works out well with my mom there. We hang out and spend the whole day with the kids at the pool or wherever the day takes us. My mom is out and about doing her own thing all day/and some of the night long. Come 10PM, once the kids are all settled and half way to sleep, Dex and I do our own thing. When we’re in Vegas, I can be so tired, but for some reason, it doesn’t affect me. I guess cause I am a happy-tired person! Well, the tickets are so freaking pricey. Plus, we have to pay for Jasmyne’s ticket now because she is two years old. So we decided to save about $115 per ticket and fly to LAX. We’ll drive to Vegas, which I will love. I haven’t driven long distances in quite sometime. Coming back home, we’re taking a midnight flight from Las Vegas to maximize the day. We arrive at 530am and off to work I go- well it’s just a class, but still! I can’t wait.

So today, I drove the truck again. It has been getting easier and easier. I am forced to drive the truck cuz I am in love with that navigation system. I took Jayda with me to run some errands. I needed a bunch ot pants tailored. More importantly, I had to stop by Michael’s again to get some crafts for Janelle’s Baptism this weekend. I got home, did three loads of laundry, gave the kids a bath, washed the bottles and for relaxation- I finished the little giveaways for the baptism. It’s not the best work I’ve done, but nevertheless, it is done. I was in such a rush cause Janelle kept waking up every 30 minutes. I think she can smell when I am gone. Now, I’m paying the bills and updating my pictures and downloading them into my Flickr site. I am on a rampage today!

I can’t wait for our family weekend off! I love those days. We are going to be every third weekend now at work, as opposed to every other weekend. It is only in my department though, i guess cause we are a whiny group of people who always get what we want. Nobody understands why I hate it so much. Nobody has a husband who also works at the hospital and works every other weekend- like me! Everyone’s husband or significant other is a M-F with weekends off type of job! I’ll have to go with the flow for now and see how it goes. If only Dexter’s department would have the same thing, but that is nearly impossible to even imagine. No more of my days off during the week. That is the one thing I love about nursing. There is no weekend in my life because I can be off throughout the week. On my weekends off, I can be off from work from Thursday to Tuesday. Our schedule is not that tough to deal with. We’ll see how it goes! Maybe I’ll end up liking it, who knows? I’ll just miss being off with Dexter on the weekends when he has to work when I don’t have to anymore! Of course, there will also be less days during the week when we’re off together. No weekends mean I am working more during the weekday. Boooo!

Okay- I’ll stop whining now!

Not Again…

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I don’t know if I am subconsciously trying not to go to the dentist, but it totally skipped my mind today. I remembered it all week. I was looking through the calendar yesterday and was dreading the fact that I had to go to the dentist. This morning though, I woke up at 1030am and was still too tired to even open my eyes. It was while I was in the shower that I remembered that I missed my 930am appointment already. Whooops- too late! That is the second dental appointment I’ve missed since trying to have it done. That dentist is officially going to ban me from ever making another attempt- I’m sure of it!

Anyway, we finalized our menu for the baptism this coming weekend. We also enrolled Jasmyne in ThreeSchool, which is basically a preschool program at our park district. It’s two and a half hours long. We decided to schedule her only two days a week to start off with. It actually goes through the school year. I’ll have to get into this later, but I can’t BELIEVE that my little baby will be starting school. Oh My!

Today has been an uneventful day. Spent the day at Woodfield with the family returning lots of stuff – but in return, purchasing even more stuff. There are lots of sales at Macy’s- and I must have been in there for 2.5 hours. I would have still been in there if my kids weren’t getting crabby. I guess I deserved their crabbiness. We left Macy’s at like 8PM. Oh boy. I’m working tomorrow and IDPH will be making a “surprise” visit. With all my luck, they will be choosing my patient, and I will be getting interviewed. Lord please save me. Well I’m gonna have to cut this short. I don’t even know how I managed to survive the day. I am sooooo freaking tired. My eyes hurt cause I’ve been forcing them open all day long. Blah!

Buzzzy Beeee

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Things have been hectic lately due to the fact that Dex and I have opposite schedules. It is rough and I haven’t been out anywhere (besides work) since the first week of the month.  I also put in a four day work week this week, plus I took a CPR and ACLS course on one of my days off. I was tired! I haven’t worked four days in a week in a long while, especially not since having another baby! Next week is another four day week, then it’s back to normal. That one day makes a difference in the paycheck, but it also makes a difference in my energy. I AM SO TIRED by the end of the week! Since I don’t have that third hand around on my days off, I am strictly taking care of the kiddies. Bath time and feedings and time for games and all that jazz. I really haven’t had the time for myself. As selfish as it sounds, everyone needs that little moment, if even for an hour! I can’t wait until Friday, cuz finally Dex and I are off together. Even on our days off though, we will still be juggling tasks. Jasmyne has her 2.5 year MD appointment and we have to go to the church and restaurant to prep for Janelle’s Baptism. Dexter’s parents are also going to be arriving from the Philippines, and I finally have a dental appointment as well. After that, we have to do our shopping for all the stuff the kids are running out of and of course, some groceries. I’m feeling the busy bug already!

With all the things going on and how tired I’ve been feeling, it has been extra hard trying to accomplish another task: Potty Training. Jasmyne loves to sit in her special seat, but hasn’t pee’d in the toilet yet. She just loves to sit there and flush and waste the tissue. I still give her lots of positive feed back just for even sitting there as long as she does. I bought her training panties which she loves. I think next week, she cannot get tissue or flush the toilet unless the waterbowl turns a different color- YELLOW! No more mister nice mommy for her! I will have to make sure my mom does the same. Training kids to use the potty and sleep in their own beds takes lots of patience and TIME! Jasmyne loves her bed, but it takes her so long to fall asleep and she wants you to lay your head by the foot side. Ugh- Dex and I barely have the energy to hold our heads up sometimes. Then we give in and lay her right next to us and all three of us dose off in a heart beat! Its so easy to fail as parents cause we are looking for the easy way out right now. We’ll get better soon, hopefully. I am determined to have Jazzy-Poo potty trained before summer!

Janelle’s swing is broken, so right now, I have to manually move it for her. She uses the swing during the day, and I reserve her crib ONLY for night time use. This allows her to know when night time is and hopefully trains her to sleep longer at night. It works for the most part, cuz her bed time is 845pm and she doesn’t usually wake until about 330am. If she slept that long during the daytime nowadays, we would be in trouble! She is definitely having longer wake periods during the day- and she LOVES to laugh! We just need a new swing, cuz I cannot be stuck in this room every single day.

Here’s to another random post… and a better work week!